Thursday, November 29, 2012

New Hyundai Elantra Review!

Ah, an opportunity to review on a car that carries swag all over its design.
Time to blow a car to bits. Definitely a beauty to behold.

Either way, despite the machine's good looks, before you dive along with
my intrigue, you might want to look in further into Hyundai's track records
with customer service, warranties and the likes.

I really find it unfortunate sometimes that good products go bad just because
they are under an irresponsible label company who can't make ends meet and
is all about the figures in the doe and nothing about providing quality service.

Some things to know about this are like how the salespersons are. I read this
one complaint that the salesperson was intimidating the buyer into getting the
car. Somewhat close to a feeling where if you don't buy the car, or agree
with him about the awesomesauce of the car, you're just dumb.

And unfortunately for him, that lady who took that in was a well-educated person
about the car she wants. She was only looking for a test-drive but they had to
put her up with that stuck up salesperson.

Besides that, there's also the issue of poor service, especially car servicing.
Apparently, the company isn't very thorough with what they do and when
customers find out what they conveniently left out, they come out with excuses
as to why they can't repair this and that and stuff like that. Definitely bad practice.

Either way, there were 91% bad reviews and 9% good reviews out of the entire
comments section. So.... yeah, I'm sure you'll know what I mean if you google
up " hyundai customer service review "

Just informing you about the current brand image for this product. Sometimes
products can look really awesome and be very engaging to you, and that's why
you've gotta equip yourself with the knowledge of why would you want it.

I'm completely against blind purchases after all haha. Anyways, share around
in the comments below if you ever find anything interesting haha.

Not to mean that Hyundai is a bad brand or anything though. I
haven't experienced it personally so I can't really say anything
for sure.

And here's a little sneak preview of the car's look if you
haven't seen it already.

stolen taken from arenakereta.

Toldja it looked good. Anyhow, if you missed my post title by some
sleight of mind, this is a Hyundai Elantra. The link takes you to a Carsifu
directory of retailers and sellers of this particular product, so go there
if you were meaning to get a hold of its local price range and perhaps
the product availability within your region. But if you want to save yourself
the trouble of looking through that info, the price range is between RM90k
to around RM120k, depending on the kinda specs you'd want for your ride.

After all, there's no harm done in checking out a cool car. If its worth the
money and accommodates your personal tastes to a certain acceptable degree,
I don't see why not.

Anyways, lets discuss about something else besides the car's sheer
physical eyegasm, like maybe the user experience of the car.

Overall, I've gathered that the car has nearly no fatal flaws at all, save
for the fact that many of its models are incredible noisy and does not
carry a good bang for your buck in terms of mileage.

And well, where there's noise, there's bound to be a lot of vibration
in some parts of the car if not just one. Also, if you're looking for mileage,
this car is about as bad as the old Proton Wira, so don't expect to save much
on fuel consumption. It's just not really built that way.

Although, I'm sure you can do something about it if you have extra cash hehe.

Aside from that though, and the somewhat horrid customer service reputation,
the car's pretty good inside out.


Oh, please note that the models available in Malaysia are locally
assembled. So... well, just letting you know. I'm not really sure
if that's a bad thing or not.

Below are more in depth specs for the car.

 Elantra Engine Performance & Fuel Economy

• Engine: 1.8L Nu in-line four-cylinder DOHC with variable valve timing
• Unleaded fuel
• Fuel economy: EPA (08):, 29 MPG city, 40 MPG highway, 33 MPG combined and 423 mi. range
• Multi-point fuel injection
• 12.8gallon fuel tank
• Power (SAE): 148 hp @ 6,500 rpm; 131 ft lb of torque @ 4,700 rpm
Elantra Handling, Brakes, & Suspension

• 3.065:1 axle ratio
• Brake assist system
• Four-wheel disc brakes including 2-ventilated
• Electronic brake distribution
• Electronic traction control (via ABS & engine management)
• Electronic Stability Control (ESC) stability control
• Independent front strut suspension with stabilizer bar and coil springs, semi-independent rear torsion beam suspension with coil springs
• Tire kit
Elantra Exterior Dimensions & Aerodynamics

• Body-color front and rear bumpers
• Day time running lights
• Driver and passenger power door mirrors: heated, body-color
• External dimensions: overall length (inches): 178.3, overall width (inches): 69.9, overall height (inches): 56.5, wheelbase (inches): 106.3, front track (inches): 61.0, rear track (inches): 61.5 and curb to curb turning circle (feet): 34.8
• Headlights: halogen with complex surface lenses
• Luxury trim: alloy-look and alloy-look
• Mica paint
• Rear window: with defroster
• Tinted glass
• Weights: published curb weight (lbs): 2,701
• Windshield wipers with intermittent wiper
Elantra Interior Features & Electronics

• 12V power outlet(s) in front
• Element antenna
• Anti-theft protection
• Ashtray in the front
• Audio system with AM/FM radio, CD player (reads MP3 format) , satellite radio
• Cargo area light
• Cargo capacity: all seats in place (cu ft): 14.8 and EPA
• Cigar lighter in the front
• Trip computer: includes average speed, average fuel economy and range for remaining fuel
• Consoles, floor consoles, overhead consoles
• Cruise control
• Front cup holders
• Outside air temperature indicator
• Intelligent driver and passenger front airbag
• Driver seat : bucket ; details: manual height, front passenger seat : bucket
• Height adjustable front seat belts with pre-tensioners for driver and passenger
• Front seat center armrest
• Two height-adjustable front head restraints, three height-adjustable rear seats head restraints
• Internal dimensions: front headroom (inches): 40.0, rear headroom (inches): 37.1, front hip room (inches): 53.5,
rear hip room (inches): 52.7, front leg room (inches): 43.6, rear leg room (inches): 33.1, front shoulder room (inches): 55.9,
rear shoulder room (inches): 54.8 and interior volume (cu ft): 95.6
• Low tire pressure indicator
• Remote power locks
• Power steering type
• Front power windows with one-touch on one window, rear power windows
• Front reading lights
• Rear seat belts for driver, rear seat belts for passenger, 3-point rear seat belts for center
• Rear seat center armrest
• Rear seats:
• Rear view mirror
• Remote control trunk/hatch release
• Front and rear curtain airbag
• Seating: five passengers
• Premium cloth upholstery
• Front side airbag
• Six speakers
• Tilt/ telescoping steering wheel
• Tachometer
• Driver and passenger vanity mirror
• Ventilation system with micro filter

Got this specs from automobilemag. Too bad I don't
really understand how to read some of the info. One of
these days, I should really just ask my dad how to check
for a good car. But what I do understand though, and found
important to point out, I've already highlighted in bold.

Anyhow, I found 2 of the of specs particularly interesting,
the electronic brake distribution (EBD) and the trip computer.

EBD's basically smart technology put into your braking system.
It helps your brakes adjust according to your driving and speed
and stabilizes your whole vehicle as you brake to give your slowing
down a smoother and better feel instead of that particular jerk
you'd wish to avoid everytime you come across a road bump.

Then there's the trip computer that might just save your ass more than
you might think it would since it calculates for you in an estimate for how long
your vehicle can go based on the current amount of gasoline you have
in your tank. I think that's a pretty neat feature if you'd ask me. Who wouldn't
wanna know an estimate of how far you can go. Saves the time of wondering
whether you should refill everytime you step in the car.

Then there's the rest of the specs which are either pretty self-explanatory
or I just don't understand how to read at all. If only I knew how to get a
proper grasp of horsepower, torque and stuff like that. I still don't know
which is for speed, which is for mileage and which is for engine capacity.

What I do know though is that it sounds cool to talk about them and understand
why certain cars put people into such awe. Something like Top Gear.

Anyways, I suppose I'll know in due time, or you guyz can always help me out
by dropping me a comment below lolz.

Thanks for dropping by and have a nice day.

Saturday, November 24, 2012

Back at Home Late at Night

Well, I guess the topic itself is very straightforward. I just hit back home around 12.45am earlier and boy, was I just about to tend to all my other wonderous self-projects that are accumulating with my pile of to-do's. Then, it just suddenly hit back to me; my super fittingly nice RM50 orange-reddish long-sleeve shirt is missing.

Then I went on a 5 minute quest to seek out. Upon failure, I just went with my usual "what the fuck?"

Because I'm just that frustrated. It was my first really cozy piece of clothe I bought for myself with my own money. I had only worn it once too. I remember seeing it in my unsorted pile of clothes. I wanted to wear it last week but changed my mind. So how does it tally that after a few days not doing anything to it at all let alone look at it and stare, it can just go *poof*?

Beats me, but whatever it is I know, once something goes missing in my house, you can never find it, and when you do, it's usually resurfaces magically 3 to 9 years later when it's aged and bad and just plain useless to you anymore.

Anyhow, yeah, I grumbled pretty loud, then my mom stopped me to reprimand me about my temper. I'm not really sure if it's really related to my temper, but if you can call temper a form of frustration, ok, maybe. Because I only grumble when I'm frustrated. Dood, you just lost your RM50 shirt that you spent 3 hours looking for the right size and colour, let alone budget in your favourite boutique of choice. If you're not going wtf, you have a coupon to redeem a salute from me anytime.

Prints best on toilet paper.

Don't worry, it's non-physical and only expires when you expire so...

Anyways, I just talked it out with my mom about things. And she's like not being able to sleep anymore because our little chit-chat kinda woke her up real conscious. So she's gonna burn some of them in front of her favourite Korean channel.

And today, I managed to get a few things I've wanted to say for a looooooooooong time to her. Like
1. My dad was the culprit to making my bro's Accounts Exercise book go *poof*. Ok, maybe it wasn't him, but it's highly probable that it was him. I witnessed him rummaging through my bro's sacred stash of books and everything only to see him toss out things he deemed as trash and casually put everything back in the way it wasn't supposed to be. I donno about you, but doesn't it just irk you when someone goes through your stuff and doesn't even have the decency to put them back the way it's supposed to be?

2. Why I never proceeded with the [Sticky Notes plan]. The Sticky Notes Plan is a plan where I planned myself to give other people a plan on what they plan to plan for their plannings.

Ok, joke aside, it's actually a set of little reminders for the forgetful many residences in this house I live in. Like Please turn off the lights, This plug is damaged, Don't leave the iron on faced down, Please lock the grill before leaving and etc. I didn't go forward with it because, well, I donno, almost everyone seems to go boncus and explode whenever they see those notes. Is it really so hard to just admit to yourself that "Hey, yeah, I'm pretty forgetful, and I know I'm getting dumber over time, thanks for the reminder," instead of like "What kinda stupid idea is this? Who fucking put this up here?"

Well, I guess you can tell why I kinda stopped along the way. But no worries, I think I'm gonna get a magnetic whiteboard instead to stick on the fridge door. I save paper right?

Well, sorta.

3. I finally got to tell my mom the whole reason why I got myself a pink laundry basket of my own to pile my own laundry in. Well, the first reason is pretty self-explanatory. Of course I wanna put in my own laundry lol. But aside from that, I don't want to trouble my mom so much having to sort out my clothes all the time and well, I really appreciate her concern and care for me as her son, but I'm sorry that I just can't help but rage whenever I get my brother's underwear and clothes and pants, and he gets mine. Ok, especially underwear. Just who in their right mind would share underwear? You already see all the hygiene alerts in fashion stores right? Ok maybe you do share around. Just don't tell me if you do heh.

The second reason is because... well, I just wanna fold my own clothes and organize my own clothes by myself. That way I'd be more conscious about my own laundry upkeep and learn to manage it, instead of always leaving it to my mom to do everything. I must admit though that I'm pretty spoiled and it's certainly a lot easier and less stressful when my mom helps with these stuff, but urgh, I just don't want to get mad at her anymore for this reason lol. Don't know if you can relate with my situation.

4. I kinda frankly explained to my mom how things are for me now with work, friends and stuff. I donno la, I really don't find cussing wrong anymore. I don't even feel the slightest bit of guilt for uttering the word that means sexual intercourse fuck everytime I do. Like I said, I normally do out of frustration, and sometimes when I'm around the same kind of people who cuss for fun.

But really, is it so wrong to grumble hard to vent out everything you've got from your system so that you not only destress, but people also acknowledge how frustrated you are about ¿something¿ ? What's the point of grumbling if you're not even gonna grumble properly? You can't grumble softly. I mean, you can, but would it feel as good as grumbling loud and properly with all the baddest words you can find in your shitty vault of vocabs?

Most certainly not.

I'm sorry if you beg to differ, but this isn't a post about how much apart we live from each others' realms or anything. It's really is just me pointing out my opinion in the most frankest of ways. You can choose to agree, choose to disagree, or choose to be indifferent. Either way, it doesn't make a difference to me, because I'm just posting a post. If you're about to explode like when you're one of my siblings seeing a [Sticky Note], I tell you la, just chill lo. No point getting angry over a difference in opinion one.

Sorry, still trying to get over my bad habit of being annoying. Oh, did I tell you that my laundry's piling up 3 times faster than before because i'm just trying to groom up myself right now? Oh wait, I just did in my previous sentence, silly'o me.

"and I fucking love pink. Especially pink laundry baskets. Don't judge me. Pink isn't gay. If you think it is, probably you're gay, for being a coward and not giving it a chance to colour your life."

And for the first time in my life, I shall hereby announce that my both my armpit hair and moustache are no longer virgin. Yeah... kinda... just... shaved them.

Also! Gatsby's Spiky Edge isn't very hair friendly. I used it and it just makes my hair stiff for like so friggin' long. It only softens up after 3 bathes within a period of 36 hours. The hold is just that strong.

I also researched about hair styling stuff, like gels, wax, mousse, pomade and clay. You can read about it where I read it. There're certainly many other sources, but that one is probably the most concise and clear version of the said topic that I could find.

Initially, I thought it'd be ok to just wear the hair cream everyday, but after my first try, I'm honestly horrified. I wanna avoid using it for as long as I can. I mean, it does what it claims to do; without a doubt. But really, if I were to wear it on everyday, I'm gonna have to stock up on more hair care products which will definitely burn a whole in my wallet, which is certainly out of the question for now. Once my income is a bit steadier though, well, just maybe.

It's also pretty retarded thinking back on my first hairstyling product purchasing experience at the local pharmacy. I had no idea what to get, how it'd affect my hair and everything that even the staff of Vitacare kinda tagged along with my bewilderment on which choice to make, so much so that we just stared at the rack for half-an hour rationalizing out which one would work best for me.

So yeah, in the end I just went whuddaheck mode and got Gatsby's Spiky Edge. Yes, this is also pink. But I only got this because it claims to work best on short hair and I have really short hair now. Hmmm...

**On a side note, Gatsby's Roots hairstyle products all come with a slight tinge of green apples in it. So it smells pretty cool. I thought I was gonna get turned off by the smell, like hairspray and deodorants do to me, but I'm actually pretty ok with it. And it's also pretty fun rubbing them into your hair with it's matte-ish feeling. But now that I know just how hard it is to just wash it off, I'm doing my best not to wear lolz.

All it takes is 3 minutes in the toilet and I'd get a decent, if not super swag hairstyle after my regular cycling journeys to work and such. So if there's no mirror around, well, I'd probably just not care lolz.

And.. about deodorants. Zzzz... I still can't really bring myself to use it. I mean, I did kinda use it once, but after going through page after page of reviews about deodarant usage and all, I donno, I just can't seem to want to use it. I mean, a lot of people do to smell good and not make others' life so miserable with their stench. But I just dislike the idea how it clogs your pores and everything. So stench it is at the moment.

So similar to my hairstyle cream, I also only use deo once in a very blue moon. So on the occasional chance that I do need it, I'll borrow my bro's deodorant, and just use it. It feels damned weird la, first time on. Maybe I'd grow out of the awkwardness after repeated uses.

Okok, this is getting really long. Sorry, I just haven't had the proper time to update like this for a long time. Not trying to give excuses or anything, but I barely have time to work on my personal things now that I kinda got dropped with some design assignments haha. The earliest I'm back is 8pm, and latest... 2am?

If you wanna know I'm doing, just swing by Picadilly anytime and give me a call/sms. You can actually find my number on my Facebook profile lol. I'm like one of the only dopes out there who actually puts my contact number there because I just know nobody's gonna bother to check for it. But if people do one day, hmmm.. that's gotta mean something right?

Anyways, I'll let you know if I can hang out with you or not. If I can't then, you can come and hang with me instead where I work. Just stay off peak hours (Wednesday 8.30pm, Friday 3.30pm and 8.30pm) haha. If not, I'll help you make some new friends so I don't have tend to you and focus on my work instead 030

Oh, and Monday's my off day.

Hokae, time to stop this great wall of text. Thanks for reading.
And remember the coupon! -OC

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Make A Change in 100 Minutes

Ah, I saw a post from my friend asking me to help vote her stuff.
I went to check it out to see if there was anything of note.

And I must say, I'm surprised with what I found. Here are
some really honest shares of what I think is good. You can
judge the rest for yourself over here. And it's no silly 1 vote
a day BS. So if you genuinely like the comics, just a  kind
vote will do. And you won't have to go back to it again.

*All comics here are owned and copyrighted by their respective
creators. I don't own any of them. Just passing along the good
works around ^^

Look for Hou Ee Fan.

Ernest Ng Thye Sern

Suraiya Othman
Anuar Hassan
Sa'ari Md Yusof
Roslan bin Kasim Kasim
Goh Kheng Swee
Chai Ying Lieh

Voting ends on the 25th November 2012, Sunday, 11.59pm local time. So help these people out? :)

Saturday, November 17, 2012

The Man With The Most Beautiful Heart

A story once told ... 

...There is a kingdom and a place not far from where you are right now, and in this kingdom and in this place there are very special people. Now these people are special because they consider their most valuable possession to be their hearts. In fact some of the people are able to hold their hearts in their hands - a very special gift indeed - and even if a heart gets broken it may be repaired at the local heart specialist. These people believe that all of their actions should flow from their hearts.

Now in this kingdom there lived a young man who claimed to have a perfect heart. He was very proud of his heart because it had no cracks or scars. It was very solid and could not be hurt or penetrated by anything at all. One day the young man was showing off his perfect heart to a large group of people - something which he did quite often. People came from miles around to see his perfect heart and for such occasions he kept it locked in a beautiful glass case. No one in the kingdom dared touch him or his perfect heart. They just looked at him in amazement for there was no one else like him in the entire kingdom.

Suddenly a frail voice arose from the crowd and said: "My heart is more beautiful than yours."

The crowd was quiet for a moment, and finally the young man laughed at such a claim for he was sure perfection was the most beautiful thing in the world. When his laughter subsided, he said to the person with the frail voice: "Come out of the crowd and show me your beautiful heart. Compare it to mine!" The young man was sure there could be no comparison, but he enjoyed the attention immensely. Slowly the source of the frail voice appeared as a little old man emerged from the crowd. He was bent with age and his face was covered with lines that told the story of a long and sometimes difficult life.

The young man spoke arrogantly to him saying: "Let me see your heart, Old Man, so I can compare it to mine." The old man did not speak - he simply showed his heart to everyone in the crowd. He did not keep his heart in a fine glass case, but he carried it with him at all times. He merely stood before the crowd gently holding his heart in his old wrinkled hands. The young man immediately began to laugh when he saw the old heart. "That is the ugliest heart I've ever seen. Why it's made of pieces that don't even fit together perfectly. You are a fool, Old Man!" When he said this, everyone laughed.

The old man began to speak again, and his frail voice could hardly be heard by the people in the crowd. "Many years ago my heart was like yours. Yes, it was perfect - but that was before I knew the meaning of love. My heart had no cracks. It had never been hurt. It was just another part of me, but soon I began to learn what love was all about and that's when my heart began to change." The young man began to laugh, but a little girl in the crowd cried out: "Be quiet and let this old man tell us his story."

So the young man stopped laughing, and the old man continued to speak as his heart tottered back and forth in his hands. "No, my heart does not look perfect because it is not my heart alone. You see whenever I love another person, I give him a piece of my heart and he gives me a piece of his. We cannot be separated - not even by death. In fact, when someone I love dies, part of me dies with them and yet at the same time part of that person lives on in me, and I am able to share that person's love and life with others.

So to you, my heart may look very ugly and funny because of the strange shapes that it is made of, but to me it is beautiful because I carry within my heart the love of many people whom I have loved and who have loved me in return. By the standards of the world it is not perfect, but the heart does not exist by worldly standards ... It lives because of love, and is measured by love." He looked at the young man and said: "Yes, your heart is perfect to look at, but it has not yet known real love, so it lacks the beauty that only love can provide."

The crowd stood silent, and waited for the young man to respond when finally he said: "Old Man, you have explained the various odd shapes that make up your heart, but you have not explained the meaning of the ugly cracks."

Again the old man spoke with a sigh: "Whenever you love someone you take a risk, and sometimes it can cause a great deal of pain because we can hurt one another so easily - but love is not known unless those risks are taken. The cracks that you see are reminders of the times when I have been hurt by one of the persons I have loved, or when I have hurt one of them. Some take their love away and remove themselves from your heart and remove you from their hearts. It is things like this that cause those cracks to appear. Yes, it sometimes hurts to love, but you must keep on loving even when it is painful. Love can be a cause of both laughter and of tears, and sometimes you can't understand the cause of either the laughter or the tears. They are just a part of your real love - and, throughout, you continue to hold your friends in your heart which is the most delicate and sensitive part of your entire self."

By this time the young man was crying very hard, for he had come to realize he was always so busy with his perfect heart that he had never loved anyone nor had he allowed anyone to love him. He removed his heart from his special glass case and held it in his hand. It was very cold and hard to touch. Tears flowed over his heart, and he was extremely sad because he did not know the meaning of real love. He only knew about perfection. Just as he was about to leave the crowd and go away from the kingdom to hide forever, he noticed the old man hobbling toward him. The young man looked up and saw the old man reaching towards the oddly shaped heart that was in his wrinkled venerable hands. The old man had removed a very ancient piece of his heart and offered it to the young man. He said: "This is a piece of my heart. I give it to you out of real love. Please accept it."

The young man reached out to accept the piece of the old man's heart. He quickly tried to make it a part of his own, but he soon realized that there was no room for it. He was puzzled for a moment until he looked at the old man and saw the answer in his caring eyes. Then the young man nervously removed a piece of his own heart and offered it to the old man.

Now the old man's heart was so oddly shaped that the piece he had given to the young man did not fit perfectly into his heart, but the young man simply set it in its place and looked at it through tears of real joy. For the first time in his life he really felt happy and he realized his heart was no longer cold and hard but it was now soft and warm. He finally had a happy heart - one that knew the meaning of love. The young man and the old man set their hearts in their rightful places and they were both very happy. The crowd cheered and cried aloud.

The young man told his teacher that he wanted to follow him for the rest of his life, but the wise old man said:
 "No, my son, you must not follow me. Now that you have learned of real love you must go forth and share it with others. You must share your love, as I have shared mine, throughout the kingdom." The young man felt very sad again, and he was sure that his heart was beginning to break, but the old man spoke again: "You must remember that we always carry one another in our hearts no matter where we go. That's what makes them so beautiful, and we will always be together because of that." The young man knew the old man was right. He walked up to him. They embraced and then went off in different directions to spread the meaning of real love throughout the kingdom.

The young man may still be found traveling throughout the kingdom telling his story about the meaning of real love. He has never returned his heart to the glass case. Now he keeps it in its rightful place willing to show it to all who wish to see it. Night and day he rejoices over his heart, now oddly shaped but very beautiful. If you ever meet him, he will surely tell you this story of how he learned that love is so much more beautiful than perfection. Perhaps you have already met him - if not look around - he may be close to you right now for there is a kingdom and a place not far from where you are right now ... and in this kingdom there are very special people.

I wish it was written by me, but it isn't. Either way, it's a good read, so I'm sharing from what I found in my fellow friend's post. Apparently she's found the right guy for her, so a big thumbs up!

And I'd like to quote again a part I found to be really important from the entire excerpt:

"Whenever you love someone you take a risk, and sometimes it can cause a great deal of pain because we can hurt one another so easily - but love is not known unless those risks are taken. The cracks that you see are reminders of the times when I have been hurt by one of the persons I have loved, or when I have hurt one of them. Some take their love away and remove themselves from your heart and remove you from their hearts. It is things like this that cause those cracks to appear. Yes, it sometimes hurts to love, but you must keep on loving even when it is painful. Love can be a cause of both laughter and of tears, and sometimes you can't understand the cause of either the laughter or the tears. They are just a part of your real love - and, throughout, you continue to hold your friends in your heart which is the most delicate and sensitive part of your entire self."

Thanks Old Man. That's just the kinda thing I've always been wanting to put into words but could find the right vocabulary at the back of my mind to do so.

And this is one of those things that really makes me love blogger. Stumbling upon things like this in the posts I follow and being able to share these valuables to everyone else out there. Of course, you can always do it with Pinterest, FB or any other social media. But I like to think of Blogger as a very rigid and solid media to do so.

Mainly because... it never disappears until you choose it so. I'm also saddened by the fact that one of my friends decided to close his blog. It's none of my business, but I found out that he set up a new blog out there, rid of personals, but all on helping people learn the things he does. He's moving on, and for that, I'm happy for him.

I once heard from someone before that work sometimes forces you to do things that you donwanna do. Like when your boss likes to stalk his or her employees and all, and always come to question you about your personal life, and you get so sick and tired of it you just shut down all your social medias.

I'm glad to say that I'm fortunate enough to not fall into such ill circumstances. I know it's probably not the case for him, but still, I'm just glad to be able to still keep this blog open. Because there's probably so much more to share in the future.

Anyways, thanks for taking the time to read.
And remember to always hold your heart where it should be - OC

Friday, November 16, 2012

I really dislike

...having time constraints when I've got things to say to someone. But I guess I just manage my thoughts somehow. And even when I do get the important facts out, right after I leave, I finally thought about so many other things that I wanted to say, but I couldn't because.. well, I just can't.

I guess there's the thing about afterthoughts. They just tend to appear right after you make your most important statements and make you feel like shit right after because you suddenly thought of so many other ways to present your conversation, but you just didn't back then.

This is kinda one of the reasons why I find it more comfortable to just blog about stuff. It's more elaborate, gives more bang to your statements and most of all, it allows you to cover more, if not all. But we've gotta admit that words without a voice and a person to pilot it with feels a lot less impactful compared to a normal person speaking. And misunderstandings tend to happen more often than not within this realm of dancing words. So it has its own fair share of pros and cons to consider.

But I try my best.

Well, since (it seems) there are no time constraints now, I'd very much like to take this chance to elaborate on a few things. But what matters is that  I'm getting this off my system. And it usually makes my mind at ease thereafter. And without further adue:

It doesn't count.
It doesn't count when only one person feels a certain way about something. Just because you think that things won't work out doesn't mean that the other person will think it won't work out. Hope basically just means that someone else besides you believe in something you don't. For as long as that exists, that is hope, and it doesn't count if only you don't believe in it.

For as long as someone else is keeping that hope alive for you, the counter-thoughts of it just don't count. And I'd prefer to focus more on how positive defeats negative, so I'm biased on making the assumption that good thoughts count and bad ones don't, because that's just how I roll.

But I'm also an ass because I'm an agnostic and I screw with everyone who tries to suggest religion into my life. Heh. Just saying.

Love is as what I've said before, "finding what it truly means together with that special someone." But what I forgot to make clear to myself was how can someone even be special to me in the first place. I've experienced it before, so I can confidently say that there are a few sure signs that tell you for a fact that you're in love.

The signs are simple. You feel happy for that person, you feel sad for that person, you get angry for that person and for most part, you get hurt for that person. If you don't experience all that, well, I think something's clearly missing from the equation of a relationship.

Because if you can feel happiness, it means that something good is coming out from it. If you feel sad, that means you always yearn for that happiness when it's not there. Then when you get angry, it's usually when you're tired of feeling sad and wanting to experience that happiness again. And alas, you get hurt, because you didn't get what you were yearning for.

Being in love basically means accepting happiness, sadnees, anger and pain all in one bundle. If you think you're in love, and you don't know that, i'm sorry to tell you that you're either still too naive or immature.

But, if you're feeling this way to anyone at all, just follow a simple rule.
Don't take your feelings for granted, and always make the decision you'd least regret.

Well, that's what I'd do anyways

Why Bother Getting Hurt All Over Again
Why even bother thinking about getting hurt? If one were to limit thyself to what hurts a lot and what doesn't, one wouldn't be able to experience something greater than pain. And that's the unexplainable feeling of being complete as a whole.

You only get hurt when you put your hopes too high onto something. And when you do that, and expect that thing to react to your hopes without first giving it a chance to just... respond to your thoughts, well... lets just say that's plain unfair and it won't happen the way you'd want it to. It's not fair for yourself, and it's definitely not gonna feel fair for that person or object you're gonna be putting all those hopes for. It's basically like attempting to melt butter by freezing it. You just can't.

You'll get hurt a lot less when you just learn to voice them out to the appropriate parties, and allow them to respond appropriately. Haplessly putting hopes without communication is just...=_=

And only nincompoops will focus on how much they don't want to get hurt. Geez, isn't that something more you'd want besides pain? Think real hard on it lol. If you really don't have anything, this is the part where I extend my greatest sympathies towards you.

It's not the same.
I know what you might be thinking about. Because I used to too. But it's actually the same. Getting hurt to get what you want in life, is the bravest and boldest thing you can ever do for yourself. Because success is the constant repetition of being successful, continuously.

When you get up there, you don't stop.
When you get in a relationship you also don't stop right?

Because you know if you do stop, your success will stop, and you will fall.
Because you know if you do stop, your relationship will stop and you'll lose whatever love you've fought so hard to get in your life.

Well, that's my theory of course. Whether you can agree with it or not is another matter entirely.

Need an example? Well, lets just look at farming. You want produce, you've gotta give it time and the proper care it needs in order for it to give you fruitful produce right? Then what, after one successful crop produce, you get so high and mighty about yourself and you begin to neglect your farm. Then it withers and dies. And then you realized you celebrated way too soon and the cycle needs to be repeated in order for you to really enjoy more. So you start back all over again with the lesson in mind.

Once you succeed, you either stay there, or you fall down.
Once you get into a relationship, either you stay together or you fall out.

Wrapping Up

Everybody needs time to sort things out in their heads. And I'm sure you do too. But whatever it is, take your time, and don't rush things. Let time and inspiration create chemical reactions to your thoughts and produce new compounds in your head full of ideas. You'll be surprised with what you can think of when you give your ideas enough time to cultivate.

If you rush things, they won't get to happen in a proper natural order, and when they do, you'd already be welling up in regret because it'd already be too late to think about it after how you've just decided on something.

But still, don't neglect the small probability. You'll only fail if you give up. So know that

From here.

and keep fighting for what you want. Half the battle is won
with a yes attitude and a firm commitment. The other half will then
happen by itself eventually.

Thanks for reading and have a nice day - OC

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Status Update

Just need to clarify that I'm working now if anyone missed
the short statement about it in my previous post. Some of
you out there would already know where I'm at if you've
been to the Magic tourney centre at Millennium Square recently.

Anyhows, I just want to share with you a certain possibility
to obtain scholarship to broaden your artist experience. There's
a link about it here, and the contest expires on the 3rd of December.

So... go for it if you think you need it. I think I do. So I'm definitely
signing myself up. Wish me luck? ^^

Gotta fight all the fatigue post-work lol. - OC

Friday, November 09, 2012

Not A Standard Fairytale

I've decided to put this up because there are things I
need to make peace with. And well, I finally got the
to meet up with me ex, to talk things out.

It's gonna be a long post, so.. just bear with me if you
wanna see it all through.

I gave it all I got, one last time, in memory of the
this Simple Wonder we've shared, to at least see if
a chance still exists just a while back. I've tried my
best convincing her, but we just couldn't reconcile.

I'm somewhat glad and morbid at the same time to
say that, things are finally over between us. We're
strangers again, but we've both found it hard to get
rid of our old habits of being friends. So we're still
friends.. I guess.

According to her, the habits are like clockwork. It's
not that it's bad or good... It's just... a habit that's just
very hard to die.

It's been very awkward for me all these while, holding
myself back from having any contact with her at all. I'm
very happy to know that she's moved on well, and never
looked back since. So.. this time the emo is one-sided haha.

And when we finally talked it out, I've experienced something
more comforting than love itself. And it was the feeling of being
friends once more. It really ached me to not be able to have
any form of communication with her at all.

To be honest, we were always better being good friends than a
couple. We're so used to being buddies that sometimes romance
just doesn't work. Well.. we've got our share of moments. But
if you compare it with our share of bloopers, it's a hell lot more.

I actually have another version of this post that I was so nervous
about posting, and I was intending to send it to her in e-mail. But
I forgot to save it, so.. I guess I'm just gonna go ahead anyways
and rewrite it all over to reflect today's, and the entire relationship
experience as a whole.

Who needs a double post anyways right?

So this post, is about me, letting you and everyone out there know
that sometimes, the things you want aren't what you need.

And today, I got what I needed, not what I wanted.

I loved her more than life, and I was willing to abandon ship just to be
with her, but she was bigger than that. We were bigger than that. So, we
both didn't follow our hearts, we were going through an intense logical
process instead. Because.. well, lets say the both of us has seen enough
of each other for 3 years, and we kinda learned the hard way that we
shouldn't follow our emotions too much.

There were many realizations that I haven't come to talk about in the open
before, but I think it's right for me to do so now. I'm not sure why, but,
you'll know as you read I guess.

Lets hope I don't regret this.

First of all, lets talk about how much of a douche I was. If you need an
example, you can always take a look here.

I was such an ass. It's incredible how she was able to put up with me
at all for so long. It wasn't just that, there was also other stuff. But that
was the only post I had where her name wasn't abused all over, so I
guess it's kinda safe to share.

I'll get to removing her names from my tags soon. If you don't know her
name, that's great. If you do.. well... uh, I can't just simply reverse that
now can I?

So continuing from where I left off, I was a major idiot for most part that
couldn't see past his own ego that even made her confront my mom over
our issues.

And to think that I was the one to talk about how our relationship was
supposed to be about us and not involving anyone else. I really can't even
begin to imagine how nervewrecking it was for her, or any girl at all to find
the guts to talk it out with someone else's parent.

In every way, she was always right about me being a lazy, easygoing loner
that's always going into the defensive whenever she tried to push me into a
brighter zone. Not to mention high in ego, insensitive and.. well, just about
everything you don't want in a boyfriend.

Good to know I'm not anymore, or at least it's kinda hard for me to say
since there's noone to actually judge me by being my girlfriend.

Whatever it is, the breakup wasn't what I wanted, but it was really needed
for me to see past all my flaws and better myself.

And more importantly, I shouldn't have posted those posts about her up on
a public blog. Shai and Zen were always right about tactness. It only occured
to me the past year that they were trying to give me good advice, and were
trying to be a good friends by asking me to grow up. But I guess I was too
naive and blind to see back then.

Thanks and sorry for being a douche everyone. I know I can't make any
amendments now to you other than to stop being a douche with immediate
effect. Whether you can find it in yourselves to forgive me or not, I still want
to apologize. But I'll make it up to all of you somehow, someday.

Coming back to the matter, I finally told her that I was actively stalking anything
about her I could find discreetly just to relive any form of connection I've had with
her. I was creepy of course. And I wasn't surprised to know that she actually did
the same, although not with the same vigor I had.

After having such an abrupt breakup that wasn't even confrontational through the
phone, my mind couldn't feel at ease. Well, that's my rational explanation. As to
why I even really did that in the first place.. *shrugs*

I guess my heart was confused. I was desperate. For anything at all. I gave her silent
treatment before and boy, did I taste this first-person real bad. I was in a position
where I'd take all I can get without having to cause her any trouble.

And yes, I was trouble. Trouble all through. If there's anything that was actually
safe to assume, I can at least say her grades would've been a lot better if I wasn't
in her life. She's wasted so much time for me, and I just bear this burden of guilt
as much as to my own dismay.

But now that we've talked it out. I don't feel that way anymore. I mean, I still
kinda do, but she told me not to feel this way, and I want to at least honour
that as her friend, and in memory of whatever great things we've shared together,
hence this post, and me, moving on for both our sake.

I realized that all this while (since the breakup), I could have just made more
effort, and things would've been better for us. It didn't have to end this way.
I once said she was being a log that I'd have to drag after I cut it down. But
what I didn't know was that I was the greater log, and she was struggling
to even keep up with the burden of being with me.

I couldn't live up to her expectations, I never saw through any of her hints,
and well, things just didn't work out long term. So here we are, me actually
living up to some of her expectations, realizing all the hints I've missed before
only to know that our time has ended and the chances have come to pass.

There's a time and place for everything. And there just wasn't anymore for
the both of us at the moment. So make sure you give it all you've got when
you've found the right person.

She also kept pestering me to open myself up to the other people out there.
I guess... there'll be a time for that next time. Just... not at the moment haha.
I donno if I can find anyone else that could make me feel the way she does
to me, and I'm still attached to my loyalty towards her despite the breakup,
so much so that when I think about other women, I just feel guilty. So.. it's
kinda hard for me right now.

And there was this update that just really hit me like a lightning bolt back then
during my stalking activities.

From here.

“Love is a temporary madness; it erupts like volcanoes and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of eternal passion. That is just being in love, which any fool can do. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Those that truly love have roots that grow towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossoms have fallen from their branches, they find that they are one tree and not two.” ~Louis de Bernieres

When I first read this, it put my thoughts into a long pause. I couldn't
think straight and everything I felt was just this building of guilt, dread
and everything bad I've caused her.

I don't even know what got to me a while back. I was just so tired after I've
finished touring the mall to prepare for the last outing with her. When I came
back to do my workouts, my mom asked me if I was ok, and I just suddenly
bursted into a tear bomb. I experienced gray silence within me once more after
such a long time back since my first real mental breakdown.

And ironically for me, we've decided to talk it out at Sunway anyways. Haha,
what a waste of effort. But.. oh well, I guess thought counts sometimes.

I'm currently reminded with this one quote on FB I read last week which says:

Guys always make girls cry, but if a girl can make a guy cry, she must really mean something to him
Boy, she made me cry alright. Because I really really wanted her back. But
I guess it's just not meant to be. I appreciated her honesty in telling me that
she was tempted to get back with me after witnessing my transformation,
but she's got better priorities than a love life, which I can't agree more,
because it applies to me as well.

Probably you too.

I honestly don't know how much tears have been lost over my sheer idiocy.
But I'm thankful that karma showed me all the hurt I've caused to her over
the course of years she's been with me.

I swear I'll try my best to not let anyone feel this way ever again. Man or
woman, friend or companion. WELL, unless if you're really asking for it...
I suppose I could give myself a shred of lenience just to humour you.

But I digress.

For the past month, I've never played a single game since then. I've got my act
together, and I don't see myself doing nothing anymore. My artworks are also
improving gradually and all's great! Just that we're not the same people we
were anymore.

I regretted saying that her FB lacked updates back then too when in fact, there
were so many things to look into in her account. There was even a convenient
"Likes" button there for me to go through if I could interest her with anything she's
liked so far. But what did I do back then? NOTHING.

There's also Twitter at one point when she asked me to join up, and I didn't,
when ironically I was the one who told her to be more involved with each
other's interest. This irony is chewing me inside out.

I don't even remember how many time she's flashed her Pinterest page to me,
hinting me to just go and take a look. And I had to only pay her page a visit
after the breakup.

So guys and girls out there, if you wanna know more about someone and
you genuinely feel that way, there's really no excuse really. I'm completely
ashamed of myself to think that I even so much as thought that I loved
her a lot, and I couldn't even do simple things like this.

So if you wanna stalk, do it right. Don't do it half-heartedly.
And make sure you don't fall too deep into an emo pit.
Do it moderately.

I've read everything only to know all the tiny details I've overlooked after
all this time. And it really occured to me that I wasn't a very sensitive partner.
Well, it's like I said, the breakup was what I needed. And it's completely
changed the perception of who I am as a person today.

Haha, to think that I prepared a full list of to-do's and not-to-do's
on our supposed d-day on Saturday which didn't work out because
she had to leave to see her relatives.

Good thing we could make it today. I even got a job offer to work
tomorrow lolz.

Anyways, the list involved things like not talking about anything related to
her that I don't know of at all, especially info I dug up, what I can do for her
then, whether I should even ask her about us or not and even planned on which
place to go to if we need to hang out and everything. I was even fearful of
the fact that she'd just stood me up.

But our conversation today was more than I could ask for. If anything, it is a very
relieving closure. And it finally put my mind at ease.

Everything was kinda hanging onto what she thought of me. It felt like a
make or break situation, as much as I don't want it to be that way. And
it broke. So.. that's just it.

I screwed up big time. It's finally time for me to accept the fact that I should
let her go, to be with a better man, a better future, anything but me. It might be
irresponsible for me to say that, but that much is true. And... being with me is
not what she wants now anyways. She's got something else in mind ^^

I've come to understand how she's felt now on the day I asked her down from
her apartment an popped the question to her, and every single time after when
she had to walk up and open up herself to me just to talk things out.

Someone said somewhere
From here,

Because you don't deal with the massive amount of trust issues when you
have sex naked, as opposed to being bare with your soul. And once it
breaks, well, look at me, at us. It's a true story. Well, not to imply our
relationship went that far or anything, just a metaphor to stress this issue.

I realized that she was in such an insecure state of mind back then that fear in
the future was the only thing the mind could interpret, but she braved everything,
THRICE, to get back with me, regardless of my attitude, against her mom's wishes,
even when she knew she had to spend more time with me and it could affect her grades.

If only I was mature enough to help her gain that sense of security.

But I have to thank her for that, and I have to appreciate her patience. But I blew it up big time.
She tried so very hard for me. And all I gave her back were excuses, empty words, no
promises, unfulfillment and disappointment. That doesn't sound like a healthy relationship
at all. So the very least I could do was to give her back the effort tenfold.

Just imagine all the disappointment.

I was even fully prepared to move with her, if she'd want me to. But.. well, it's like
I said, things just weren't meant to be.

And to think after all I've put her through, she still had the decency to be considerate
enough to set our meet up at a place nearer to where I live. God, just what have I done
to this innocent soul.

And to... Shaz. Women were never the problem. It's us men. At least this time, I couldn't
agree with what you said back then at EM, at least not for her. She doesn't deserve to be
thought of that way. I on the other hand, I do. Well, some other women do, but this
relationship was purely me.

I mean, we've both come so far and we both have our share of fallacies, but I'm to
blame for most part.

I sincerely and earnestly thought that if I could just get another chance, I can promise things
will be different. And even if I can't get that chance... things will still be different. Because
she made me realize that. And I'm truly ashamed of myself that she had to come to the point
of breaking up only to make me really see.

Her love changed me. I want to give back all that I owe to her if she could still allow me in
her life. So this is me, honouring what good memories we've had.

My goal was to be the luckiest man on earth again at first, but it doesn't coincide with letting
her be the luckiest person on earth. So.. I'll just have to make do.

Oh.. looks like maybe I did one thing right. Maybe.

I've finally learnt my lesson real hard. I wasn't good enough back then, and even if I am
now, the timing is not right. So this is me, sharing my experience with y'all. I'm not
sure if you'll learn anything from this, but I hope you do.

We all want fairytale endings. But you've gotta work for it, pay attention to it
and most of all, act like you'll never ever want to let it go. Because I didn't
understand this kinda motivation until the breakup. This breakup is a major
turning point in my life.

I'm here, better than I ever was compared to when we were still dating.
For that, I'm eternally grateful for the experience.

I don't know if a higher power is at work here. But I know this experience
is meant to be for me.

Thanks for reading. I appreciate the thought of you taking time to read
this whole post. Because sometimes, we just have to give thanks where
it's due. And I'd like to start this habit now.


Thursday, November 08, 2012

A Love Eternal, Revamped

Yeah.. I can definitely blend colours better now. But does it still 
give of the same feeling? Hm. Original post for artwork here.

I'll add on a new tag here, for other redone artworks in the future.
I'll put them under the label revamp.

And I also kinda updated all the pages on my tabs.
Feel free to look through haha.

Have a nice day. OC

Monday, November 05, 2012

A First of Firsts

The First
Have you ever experienced a wonderment so baffling, so bedazzling, that you could hardly believe that it's reality?

It feels as if it was a deja vu materialized, an illusion brought into a physical, tangible experience, so sudden that your body could hardly believe in the sensation itself.

Memories you'd only dreamt of having, and there they are, infused with you pysche, unfading.

It's like when you remembered how you set your first stride after the continuous falls you've faced from just struggling to keep your feet together, that clashes with sudden revelation of the most beautiful experiences you've had, that sublimates into this incognito you knew were false all your life, but always rang true.

You finally knew the signs. They were always there the moment you braved the stuggles to stand and walk. Just that  it took you this long to discover that you were never born poor, but you've been bountifully blessed with many gifts and talents.

A gift of identity. 

A clear idea of who you are and what you are capable of,
which is only limited to how far you're willing to dream.

It's like finding what was you first true love after going through
the pain of its loss in a certain passing of time, that's finally
telling you that those memories aren't painful, but they
are in fact, the most beautiful experience you've ever felt.

A first of firsts.


When Your Day is full of Suay

Suay is... well, it's Asian for a situation that's just full of shit and bad stuff.

So this is me here, saying that it just doesn't have to be that way.
Not today. I hope.

You can use this with 1095 width on your blogger and it
should fit perfectly.

Enjoy you.


Saturday, November 03, 2012

When You Hold Her Hand Back

It's just a handshake.

This is a stemmed from an earlier post which is giving me a headache
now that I look back at it. Can I just elbow the author?

Anyways, these are a few questions to ask yourself before you
decide to give that firm handshake.

Question 1, how do you feel towards her?

Question 2, can you vouch that you'd always put her first?

Question 3, will you be able be able to hold all your assumptions 
before consulting your partner about any issues whatsoever?

Question 4, will you be able to respect the decisions she makes, 
who she is, and how she behaves?

Question 5, how far are you willing to change or sacrifice for her, and 
to what extent?

Question 6, how will the relationship affect both your future and hers?

Question 7, will you be able to set your relationship as a commitment 
and always honour it?

These are questions to ponder about. You don't have to answer them all
at one go. It can happen periodically as you find out more with that person
as you go out for more dates. But it'd be great if you could answer these all
before actually going serious, especially Q7.

But what you don't know is that the order of ascending importance in
regards to Q1-7, is actually in reverse.

You'd usually already answer Q7 by saying yes to the first date.
Q6 will happen when your talk to her about what you do.
Q5 will prompt when you're willing to finish up more work just so that
you can have a free weekend with her or so.
Q4 will happen when you begin to notice her behaviour and come
across your first disagreements.
Q3 will happen when she just stops contacting you all of a sudden.
Q2 will be answered when Q7-3 are repeated.
Q1's true form will unfold once you do do Q7-2 long enough.

Now, let me just tell you the kinda of person I'm looking for (Nov 2012)

I'm looking for someone who makes me
restless everytime I think of doing something for her,
gives me cold feet everytime I'm expecting to meet her,
makes me motivated to be larger than life
and gives me a heartache whenever I'm not with her
and for most part,
makes me smile from just the slightest glimpse of her.

These things, aren't really things you can control. So if
they're all happening to you, chances are, you better
sort out those 7 questions fast because she just might be it.

I've made the remarks I did back then because I didn't truly
know of the existence of such feelings. Now that I do, that
post just doesn't feel right anymore.

Still, it might be helpful for those who need a good elbow.
Now.. to address the questions.

Question 1, how do you feel towards her?
Ask yourself honestly, are you willing to sleep with her?
If you're not, that just means your sense of superficialism
can't defeat your sense of wonder in one's character. 
Because if you could sleep with someone with just
pure character alone, man... Man, that must be one
helluva person I'm telling you.

But jokes aside, ask if you've ever found her annoying,

or if you're ultimately enjoying your time around her.

Question 2, can you vouch that you'd always put her first?
You can never vouch for it 100%. If you can, man, your
dreams must mean nothing to you. Unless if your dream
was to be with her then... Good for you.

Might not be for her though.

But always try your best. If you can't, at least let her

know in advance. Keep disappointments to a minimum.

Question 3, will you be able to hold all your assumptions 
before consulting your partner about any issues whatsoever?

Fights and arguments happen, usually fueled by piled up
assumptions and misconceptions. Always find ways to
clear your head before initiating a conversation about
the issues.

And then ask yourself if the issue is worth the fall of the relationship
when things go a bit out of hand. Sometimes it's just better to give
in to the little things than to lose it all.

Question 4, will you be able to respect the decisions she makes, 
who she is, and how she behaves?

Even if you say no, sooner or later you'll soften up and come
to realize that people are just being themselves. So instead of 
trying to adjust people to you, sometimes you can just do them 
favor by adjusting to them instead.

Because if you're adjusting and it makes you a better person,
that relationship isn't destructive. But if it adjusts you in a 
very negative way... ask if the love is worth the decomposition
of your innate moral values and character.

Question 5, how far are you willing to change or sacrifice for her, and 
to what extent?

Be realistic. If you say you'd give up your life for her, you better don't
chicken out when she needs a transplant. Don't tell her she's worth
more than your dreams when you know you can't keep it. But if you're
already willing to go as far as reshaping yourself for her, I highly doubt 
it'd be a problem.

Question 6, how will the relationship affect both your future and hers?
Which is why it's always so damned important to talk about your
dreams with other people. If they don't know how big they are to
you and how much you want it, they can't empathize you for it 
and therefore might lack consideration for you when it comes to
that. If being together helps the both of you advance further in
life, that's a very positive sign you should stay together.

Because there are two things that define your highest level
of bliss: By how much you've fulfilled in life, and by how much
you can share your fulfillments with that person you love.

Ask yourself which one will stick with you longer,

your unstable job that you'd retire to when you hit an old age,
or a person to enjoy your retirement with until the end of your days?

You can work till you die.

Or you can love till you die.
And sometimes you can do both.

Just remember that people are each unique to their own. Jobs are all 
about opportunities and how hard you want to find it.

Question 7, will you be able to set your relationship as a commitment 
and always honour it?

Well, lets rephrase this. 

Can you not be late for any dates or appointments with her? 
Can you not cheat her with someone else? 
Can you not upset her unnecessarily? 
Can you always make time for her? 
Can you not disappoint her? 
Can you see yourself sharing a house together living
as a couple and not just 2 people sharing a roof? 
When will you propose?
Can you tolerate her friends, parents and relatives for 
the sake of the relationship?

A relationship that's all about you usually doesn't go about the right direction.
Because people can never be perfect. They can be as perfect as they can
afford to be, but if they do so, it's only appropriate if you do the same.

So, if you happen to find someone that gives you insomnia,
gives you stage fright, empowers you, gives you severe lovesickness
and makes you genuinely happier, just make sure that you know
your job and all the success you can have will never be as great
as having her beside you when you do.

Sometimes it might also seem like having her alone would do.

Because chances are, she's so unique that she'd be the only one who
can make you feel that way. So if you've found her, never let her go
at all costs.

Good luck.